I’ve mentioned this before, but I have no problem with redundancy … my walking commutes are some of my favorite moments in my day. Yesterday after spending the majority of my late morning/early afternoon sleeping off a migraine that I assume was due to dehydration (celebrating a friend’s birthday at the bar followed by hot yoga in the morning – not recommended), I strolled downtown for a dinner date with a good friend. On my way, I got to thinking … because what else is there to do when you are simply walking and listening to music? Somehow my mind wandered to the topic of definition, specifically how people define themselves.
I believe that is it healthy to have interests, hobbies, close relationships, jobs, and whatever else it is that keeps you busy and inspired. However, it is when these things begin to define us that we run the risk of losing the sense of who we actually are at our core.
I am at a point in my life where many things that used to define me are no longer tangible. I’ve had many of the significant things that I was using to fill the definition of myself fall away, and what I am left with is simply – who am I really? And the answer is: I only kind of know.
It’s absolutely true that I am not who I was when I was in high school, or college, or cosmetology school, or even who I was a year ago. When you are young, it’s easy to get swept away in the definition of who you think you SHOULD be, which is typically determined by the expectations of those around you. I have never taken the time to figure out who I am and what I want, and that’s the journey that I’m now on. Deep down, who am I? What do I love? What do I believe? Who do I want to become? I don’t think it’s ever too late to start asking these questions – or that we should ever stop asking them either.
I’m excited to build myself from the ground up. I’m peeling back the layers of expectations I’ve been given and starting fresh. I’m giving myself the space to re-evaluate, to make mistakes, and to give myself the grace that I give to others. I’m also looking forward to learning more about myself, family, friends, acquaintances, and even strangers. I’m going to read more, cook more, create more, listen more, walk more, sleep more, and hopefully blog more.
I was going to post an outfit along with this text but I think I might just leave it as it is … so look for an outfit tomorrow.
I hope you are all challenging yourselves to be the best you can be and living to your full potential. I will leave you with this:
“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet new people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”
- F. Scott Fitzgerald